a blessing.. not...

There is one thing I have realized since I was alone. There was a somekind of a realization. When I was dropped out in my former school, it was like a blessing to me, because firstly, I met my ex-GF in CCS, and spent the most wonderful 8 months in my life, felt the love that I never felt before. Secondly, I was more serious about my life and my studies, I was a bit of a more "grown person". I was true to myself. But now, this happened, me and my Gf broke up, Is there any reason behind it? as they say "everything happens for a reason", what the hell is the reason for this? I would`nt want to know, I`d rather have her back. Even if the reason would benefit me a lot. I would`nt have that, because I`d rather have her. But what if? It would benefit her more?

Questions, questions, and more questions! why cant I answer them?

-jP
-Sephiroth