The Dunk…

Well, an hour ago we went to our friends house to play basketball, since the main basketball court of the village was filled up with bullies. Anyway, when we arrived there, we got dressed up to play some hoops. Then we started sweating, then we played so damn well, and at one point of the game my adrenaline rush was so intense, that when I got the ball, I flied SO HIGH that my head reached the height of the ring, then BOOM! the DUNK! damn, I loved that dunk so hell yeah, Hahaha, thats so damn well, and then I fell then my friends rushed to me, Damn, I just wished I got that dunk on camera, I got get drafted in the NBA or something, (hahaha, dream on fool!) Anyway, Thats is for the Dunk, My friends were talking about it when we were on our way home, that dunk was the best of the dunk`s I ever had.

Face your fears, Live your dreams.

-jP
-Sephiroth

Goodbye to you...

"Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I love
The one thing that I tried to hold on to"

Thats the chorus of the song by Michelle branch "Goodbye to you". I can really relate to those lines, especially the last two lines, "You were the one I love" yes, she was the only one I loved, I loved her so much, I never loved someone like that before, she was the only one that I loved for such a long time, so much love that I could give her the freedom she wants, I love that girl so much, and I`d love her forever. Next line, "The one thing that I tried to hold on to" Yeah, thats right, she was the only one, and to over emphasize, THE ONLY ONE That I have been holding on for so long, but I had to let her go. But anyways, good luck to her and her life, may she find the best person that suites her.

Best wishes,

-jP
-Sephiroth

Its easier to run.. yes it is...

"If I could change I would take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave"


Well, I can really relate that song to my life, especially the lines in
parenthesis. Damn, "If I could change I would take back the pain
I would" yes, I`d do that, theres so many things I need to change
about me. Dammit, and also I want to take back all the pain that
I gave her and to myself. (harharhar) Now dont look at me, dont
blame me, I fell in love, oh man. Im blabbering. Well its a great song.
Try it.. ;)

I love her very much..

-jP
-Sephiroth

Mum Laughed...

Well, my mom called this morning, then she told me if I was excited for manila. Then I told her that I was so excited, then she told me, for what will happen to us (me and Verna), well then, I told her I called it off (our relationship), then she laughed, why I called it off, she said I should have waited for her to call it off, well then, I told her, I needed to call it off. She asked why, then I told her there were things in my life and in her life that are'nt just meant to be. Well then she was also worried of me with a sarcastic tone, that what will Verna`s parents do to me, since verna`s parents were converting to Islam (you know how discriminative Catholics can be). Well, I told her that Verna cant do that to me, she would protect me, because she loves me, (and I hope that love will last forever). Anyway that was about it, Then she remained amused and laughed. :)

well well, I dont care, let the laughing festival begin. ;)

-jP
-Sephiroth

PS: I`m not laughing with them.

The 8th Poem She sent me..

"Never Have I Fallen

Your lips speak soft sweetness
Your touch a cool caress
I am lost in your magic
My heart beats within your chest

I think of you each morning
And dream of you each night
I think of your arms being around me
And cannot express my delight

Never have I fallen
But I am quickly on my way
You hold a heart in your hands
That has never before been given away"



It was January 23rd of 2005 when she sent me this, damn shit. The thought alone that she`s gone is killing me. Well, what can I do? I could`nt force her, dammit, one thing I realized is, this song, its true "You dont know what you got til its gone" well, I knew what I got, but now she`s gone, It just hurts me more and more. What in the World can I do to take her back? well, its goodbye for me.

Pls do come back anytime you want.. yes you..

I love you,

-jP
-Sephiroth

Renzokukened Heart...

Renzokukened. Yes, Ive been renzokukened (the skill that cloud used to kill me) by my ex-girlfriend. Shit, this hurts so much. I cant understand what Im feeling. I want to get her back, I shouldnt have cleared it off, ah, bullshit. I know She wont come back. I just wish though. Man, that girl is one of a kind, she`s stuck in my heart, she makes me, feel the love that I never had. But shit, I just let go of her, stupid of me. Dammit. I shouldnt have done that. But, What the hell, I love that girl so much. Even if there are the oh-so-redundant-so-many Consents to be considered. Shit, I should just have made that pass by, now look at me. Im so incomplete right now. There are things that I miss so0o0o much. Dammit, If I could just turn back the time, I shouldnt have let her go.

Fuck this, I hate myself, Im just wondering where do I go now.

-jP
-Sephiroth

Nothing compares...

Nothing compares to the sweetness of this girl and the love she has given to me, even if my consents were that hurting, its not always that. There is also a side of here that made me love her, but of course? why should I be saving our relationship those last months if I didnt love her? I love her so much. Well anyway, She has that effect on me, even right now, Im still so in love with her and I would always will love her forever, I wont crowd her now, I know this hurts, but shit me, I need her to be open to other relationships, I dont want her to mind me, even if it hurts, I dont want her to think that I`m depriving her. But anyway, she has that smile that I`m always gonna miss and the worries she gives, damn, Im gonna miss that. That nights that we had, the phone calls, the way she calls me "boo" "bheybi" "lablab" and all other.. damn.. Im gonna miss those. If there`s just any way to take her back, but I doubt it, I still want her to be mine forever, but I dont think she wants me in return. But if she would, I would be always open for her, she`ll be my forever true love. Damn, she`s the one. Well, anyway, I need to end this now, bhubye, I`ll just be updating this post. There`s many things that are left unsaid.

-jP
-Sephiroth